Stating the obvious to render unobvious solutions.

It is difficult to sum up what is going on in this pluralistic world... in this age of uncertainty...where demands are so fragmented it's hard to realize which to appease first.
From the deconstruction or restructuring of current political systems ...to creating global peace and harmony to creating a healthier greener future ....to taking care of Generation Ys future economy ...... HOW DO WE EVEN GET ANYWHERE when we got various religions/belief systems , diversified political partisanship, all manner of businesses (large and small), differing philosophies, seperate nations, spread out wars, and all the sects within fighting for different causes?????????????

I can point out what some are doing. Some are terrorizing so that religious totalitarianism is possible. HECK they can destroy all the above and force everyone to follow their agenda. Some are using money and or media to influence or manipulate the current affairs. Some kill off. Some nuture and take care of others. Some are going to dieties to take care of all that is happening around them. Some are demonstrating or striking. Some are throwing parties and events for some cause. Some are influencing this world with positive, educational media and text. Some write music, write books or blogs or articles, paint pictures, or take pictures to influence somehow. Some teach or educate at institutions. Some are inenting new and unused systems. Some are passing off old systems for new. Some promote or attend self development courses. Some are plotting to infiltrate all systems and structures for the benefit of future generations. Some are educating themselves to figure out what to do about the world. Some are Socraticallly posing questions. Some are sitting doing nothing and watching life pass by. Some ignore everything around them. HOW CAN WE ADDRESS ALL THE ABOVE AND THEN SOME?

Its always been like this..... but never before with AS MUCH fragmentation. Obviously it is too complicated to sum up what is to be done in this UNWORKABLE, DECAYING WORLD especially when everyone has their own solution(s). I don't think I need to say why...

Some of these agendas have no idea of the existence of these other agendas.

Is there too much focus on differences? Is that an influence on whats happening today? If so what can be done about that? If not, what is a better explanation? Can we come up with all the explanations in ONE conversation? And then solutions for these explanations?

This is an open forum. I'd like to hear from anyone about ideas on how to make a difference with life as a whole. How can we get anywhere . No holds bar. i dont want answers.........instead raw ideas please... BUT please spare me the details on how progression takes time..and that we can't please everybody... Im aware of that.

Love brings me back to insanity

Continuing on the the new found relationship, I would like to express my human flaws and tell you the misery it has caused me in the last 24 hours...

First off, I must say I had no emotional issues whatsoever affecting me and my life until I allowed heart investing. Before, I was enjoying the uninvested dating life.

As you may know I deeply want to enjoy life and I want to share it with this particular person. However, after the moment I declared all my heart to him, I noticed feelings and emotions that I despise so much about myself. These feelings include: jealousy, insecurity, fear, and anxiety. How they show up are in my text messages and mood swings. If he doesn't answer right away I get worried he is ignoring me. I start thinking things like, "I must have scared him, said something wrong, and/or he found someone else. Most likely it is because we already say 'I love you' and he's now starting to feel the pressure of moving too fast!" ... I would agree that reasonably we have been prematurely engaged in something that has not quite developed... GETTING TO REALLY KNOW EACHOTHER...

One thing I must say is that I despise the whole GAGING process of a relationship prospect. AS IF! As if I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH ALREADY????! Compatibility Shmadability !

But that is the nature of selection I guess.... and it happens whether I like it or not. And that is the stage I'm suspecting he is putting me through.

To see if I am desperate or needy or crazy or possibly even predictable (ugh). Well the fact that I think he's doing that IS what's driving me crazy.... I mean with respects to the law of manifestation, don't people find what they are looking for? I mean don't you think he would find out that there are some imperfections in my sanity since the truth is EVERYONE'S insane anyway?! Believe me I'm not copping out that rhetorical question just so I can get away with being insane. As a matter of fact, Eckhart Tolle stated in his fantastic book A New Earth, "To recognize one's own insanity is, of course, the arising of sanity, the beginnng of healing and transcendence". So HAH! I am a step above (so don't you get your condescending thoughts just yet! ;P ) Anyway, I feel if that's how people are going to approach a relationship than they are going to never be satisfied. What's even more ridiculous is that I'm not even sure if he is gaging me!!!!! IM ASSUMING! Ya I know I can be such a 'tard.

And people do BELIEVE that satisfaction and happiness is a situation and not realize it is a state of mind. I know I may not seem satisfied at the moment but I am aggressively on my way and will be satisfied at any given moment :P....

Jealous? Hell yes I am! As soon as a see a cute hottie, I'm already suspecting that my boyfriend is a target of a thief of hearts. I don't show my jealousy so it gets to enjoy blending my inner guts while superficially I behave calm and collected for hours until I get to leave the party or social " whatever it is".... I get jealous and while I believe a little jealousy is healthy I think mine takes the cake!!!!! It is the emperor of all jealousies and I despise the tyrannical deadly sin. EWWWW! How does one overthrow this spawn of Satan that is deep within me??? And to think I've done some hardcore self development courses...

Fear and anxiety of losing him happens when I am at home. You know the sleepless tossing and turning?

All this within 24 hours before this moment I am writing.. and Is that LOVE? Or is it my disgusting mind that thinks and thinks and thinks and thinks and thinks and doesn't shut the f up!? I think we all know which one it is...

Love him truly? According to my biased, limited, not omnipotent mind YES! I love him so much that although it would be excruciating for me I would let him go if that made him happy.

I just realized right now I am being too hard on myself juggling many things at once within 24 hours: respecting his individuality, keeping myself in check, expressing myself so that others would be interested in reading my blog, identifying the duality between Self and ego, not going insane, etc etc.

Self judgement seems to be the recurring ungodliness that happens when I feel this way... but now that I realize that.. i feel less weight and significance

I applaud myself for taking the step to observe my ego.. and now my peace is back. thank you for reading

Living in a MULTIVERSE.

Is the Universe say..... mulitiversal?

Let's first study the root words of the two convergent subjects.

Both share the root word verse which = "word"

and than uni = one , while the other, multi= many

Well, this ONE seemingly infinitesimal universe is made up of ether, galaxies, and solar systems that stretch way beyond what we could hardly imagine...... we on planet earth are relatively aware of only what happens within our own solar system. Within our own planet exist MANY colors, shapes, cultures, languages, etc. There are many philosophies, political systems, religions, living patterns that may clash or even have no obvious correlation/affect on eachother. However, they coexist.

For what? Why do we live in a world where paradigm varies amongst not only different creeds but also amongst each and every individual "being"? Seemingly, "no rhyme or reason" has domain over all existence; which, fortunately or unfortunately, encompasses the fact that we beings can create our OWN rhyme and our OWN reason. ( This leaves me in an incessant dichotomy in myself and my life). AND if you have the same notion THEN we have something in common, and therefore we share a common expression. Would this commonality have merit to be called a UNIVERSE?

Naturally our common expression would have it's antithesis: one or more persons with the opposite, yet coexisting, ideology. The antithesis' in reality just exist with no value until a biased thinker labels the opposite thought as foolish, bad, wrong, evil, or in the worst case "the enemy". Such actions of the word and mind from just one individual creates more arguments and drama than necessary. Like ripples in the water, these labels spread far and wide amongst the peoples of the world. It makes me wonder why dogs, cats, whales etc do not really give a shit that all this is happening. Every single creature exists with there own realities and within each organisms are microorganisms with their own set of rhymes and reasons.

While there are those who are working to create or discover common ground and workable constructions of this colorful coexistence, there are those who continue to believe that our differences need revolution and therefore try to eliminate the differences. Consequences: murder, slander, gossip, hate, bigotry etc. While duality exists ( liberalism/conservatism atheism/deism meaningism/meaninglessism ) a spectrum (independentism, green peacism, extemisms, polytheisms, etc. lies between the dualities so therefore dualities are truthfully not real. The dualities exist because we say so. So what are they really?

Are they one thing with many sides (like two ends of a pole with matter in between)? Are they like organisms, made up of a multitude of organisms?

I believe we live in a multiverse and a universe at the same time. Hopefully this thought brings me closer to enlightenment, where the illusion of duality disappears and the universe and multiverse are one in the same. Where fundamentalism and progressivism are one and the same.... Should I give a crap if the universe encompasses the multiverse or VICE VERSA??? Or shall I choose to focus on other facets of life in this multiverse like say family, romance, health, fun, sex, work, finances? etc.... I choose whatever I choose with and without permission... ( to be continued)

Love is the theme today

Suppose that one is conditioned to focus on drama.... self-imposed or brought on by surroundings.... Would the experience of drama be inevitable? Is a horse a .....horse???!!! OF COURSE!

Well, I happen to be much cooler than dramedy.... I focus on what an amazing lover I am... and how MUCH I deserve love. And what do you think shows up? That's right! Satisfied men with my name in their planners for the following week. I happen to be very grateful and turned on by it all. And it's not because the sex was amazing... sometimes, I am not so hot in bed. Really.. I am turned on by my own sexy organ.... my brain.. and the games it chooses to play.

What I find men love about me is my love for drama-less conversation and my candid sexual appetite. I think it is really because I love my own aforementioned traits and OWN them. The trick is to practice the Law of Detachment (read 7 Spiritual Laws of Success by Deepak Chopra), and practice unconditional love where I learned from hardcore self development courses.

I do mention I have a real success in the dating world and my stories are quite the amusement at work. I had a co-worker tell me that 90% of why she is laughing at work is because of my dating stories. (no worries gentlemen.. they are all flattering stories) Now the reason why I mention all that I have is to let you fabulous readers know that I was very satisfied with this single lifestyle. I was satisfied with who I was being and the circumstances that got created by the way I was being.

Now a young man walked into my life a week ago, and all the previous mates became strictly friends. (I will mention that I wouldn't mind a platonic relationship with them all if they would have it) I now have someone that I see myself with for the long haul... THAT IS SHOCKING to even MYSELF! I do not easily give in to the Long Term Relationship situation since my last relationship. I had numerous direct conversations with several different mates about how I am not ready for that....... until now.

Love at first sight... It really is. I'm head over heels- Love songs in my head-singing in the shower- plotting to make him stay for it forever with me- IN LOVE! Now I stand in a new realm of possibility.

I will spare the details of my new love for now with the intention of letting you all know about him later. All that needs to be known is that I am recently in a new scene... and I like it.

Of course life throws a new set of breakdowns when a new realm occurs. Mine happens to be the state and federal law. Even if Proposition 8 does not pass and I get to marry my new love, there is still one riddle. How does my sexy French boyfriend get to live here with me permanently in the US - without marrying a female citizen? He has a student Visa, and he is to return to France in a few months if we don't figure it out.

Like I always tell myself, "No drama... just joy and peace....", but it has been confirmed that we seriously do not want to live without each other. I don't want drama in my life, but this situation has me deeply emotional with tons of dis-empowering thoughts running incessantly in my head. My heart aches to even think about being physically too far to drive and see him. I am weak in the knees for him. I have considered getting married in Canada, and I even think of moving to France with my one and only. Any advice?